Take that deep breath!

So I'm having the jitters (believe me, you have no idea) for not being able to formulate a research topic for Language, Society and Power, much less know what emiprical studies I'm going to conduct to prove my speculations and existing discourses. And it literally translated on my face as I realised I wasn't smiling anymore.

But I've also come to realise that maybe, possibly, I'm just being too hard on myself. And it got me wondering, is it an ego thing? I may not be an A student, but definitely not an F either. But I don't just want to be a mediocre C, one which I always have been.

And because of that, I've forgotten to take that deep breath. But as God would have it, reminders come in little ways subtly through my everyday life: My friend from class reminded me to enjoy life here, friends back home are planning a massive project (which I suspect is probably a collage of old photos of geeky Jo back in NUS...yikes!), the glorious sun in the first week of Spring (though the weather report claims that it's going to rain for the rest of the week from tomorrow), and even the telly (which actually transferred through a morbid topic of impending death, but still...)!

Suddenly, I am reminded of William Hung. Of course, I know that with God in control, I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

So yea, I will remember to take that deep breath and walk on with faith. (^_^)

PS: Just wanted to share this song that's on The Oprah Winfrey Show on telly as I was writing this entry...