Something is not right and I know it for I haven't been able to string words into sentences and sentences into comprehensible texts for the last two days. With my mind in a whirl, it still is hard for me to decipher my own thoughts.
...habitual creatures...routine...fight to be different...window of opportunity...when one door closes another will open...making choices...what is right...too many doors...selfish wants...duty and obligation...I-centric world...lost and empty momentarily...afraid...how do I...stigma...live life to the fullest...social norm...in retrospect...what if it was wrong all along...will I do it differently...
And my state of brooding disquietude is making me wonder what's wrong with me. To elevate this bizarro to a new level, I even found myself telling Uncle M on Friday night I was feeling a little lost (He didn't even have to probe like he usually does). Maybe I was just overwhelmed by the surprise phonecall that came halfway across the globe, but volunteering information about myself sure wasn't me.
But I know everything's gonna be alright for my God-sent assurance, literally, came in the form of Darlene Zschech from Hillsong Church and these words:
God above all the world in motion,
God above all my hopes and fears,
Well I don't care what the world throws at me now,
It's gonna be alright!
Cause I know my God saved the day,
And I know His word never fails,
And I know my God made a way for me,
It's gonna be alright!
And as if somehow divinely guided, I set my eyes on a little card I'd always carried with me but never remembered the words on it which wrote: "Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid." - John 14:27
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