Of epiphany and epiphany...

The thing is, there are always things on my mind.  The difference is whether I have the time to sit and write.  Quite unfortunately, with life moving at sonic speed these days, some will slip me by after a couple of hours.  Others, which usually are what I would rather forget, tend to stick around a little longer.

Ahhh...the conundrum of life.  Much to my dismay, I discover myself giving more attention to people who do not matter (and of course if you know me well enough, the subtext actually reads "people I want to kill") than those who do.  Have you ever had co-workers who left you wondering how they landed themselves the job in the first place?  Well, enough said.  It's the same for feedback.  My natural tendency is to focus on the negative ones when it comes to my work, simply because it is one negative feedback too many.  It doesn't matter how amazing people think I am, because the negative comment/ feedback is the annoying stain that I cannot but notice.

My epiphany came from a trusted co-worker whom I safely call my friend.  I was reminded that I was full of love, and happiness, but the old me dissipated in the past year.  And it was spot on.

So, when Pastor Prince started singing Before the Throne of God Above, I was really thankful because I was beating myself up for "losing" that love.  That was for me!

"Before the throne of God above, I have a strong and perfect plea.  A great high priest whose name is love, who ever lives and pleads for me.  My name is graven on His hands, my name is written on His heart, I know that while in heaven He stands, no tongue can bid me thence depart..."

Such amazing grace!  And it can only be Jesus...